Back to Reality

My baby is 9 weeks old....
It is now spring........
I am returning to work next week (P/T for two weeks, F/T on 04/12)

Where did the time and winter go? I can not believe how fast my leave has gone by. I meant to document more of it but since my laptop died, coming upstairs to use the desktop proved to be more challenging when in competition with activities such as eating, showering, and sleeping.

So we are at 9 weeks and how is Miss C doing? She is doing fantastic and changing at a rapid pace. I swear every morning there is something a little different and new. Things that are apparent to the world like the cooing, focusing on faces, and head strength. Also subtle changes that are apparent to me like thicker, longer eyelashes or plumper ears ( I know that sounds funny). The best though are the smiles. They are becoming more frequent but it is very hard to catch smiles on camera. I either get this:

Or a blurry, out of focus shot like this:


For what Miss C lacks in nursing skills (she's a sleepy eater) she makes up for in sleeping skills. She totally rocks and already sleeps 8 hours through the night.


So how do I feel about returning to work and leaving Miss C in the care of others. Well, conflicted. I have learned that the feelings are not mutually exclusive. I look forward to returning to work but am really sad about the lack of time we'll have together and missing out on moments. One of the daycare women referred to the staff as "her new mommies" and I died a little inside (OK that was a little dramatic but it did sting). Kris will be home with her one day a week which makes me happy but will also probably make me envious of their time. I know that these feelings are nothing new to working Moms and I will adjust. In reality I am dreading returning to school more than work because for 10 weeks, two nights a week I will not see Miss C or Hubby ALL DAY. Like gone from 6:30AM-10:00PM. Hubby says to focus on the fact that it is only 10 weeks and then I will be DONE with my MBA but it is still hard. OK enough of the pitty party.

Char had her 2 month docs appointment and she is currently 10 lbs 6 ounces and 22". She is a tad small (25-50%) but she is gaining and growing well (her lowest weight was 6 lbs 5 ounces around two weeks after birth). She received her shots yesterday and a oral vaccine for rotavirus (with daycare on the horizon I was on board). I told her that Momma was not scared of shots or needles so she shouldn't be scared either. For the first shot, she screamed so loud that nothing came out of her tiny mouth (or the pitch was so high only a dog would hear it). The next two she cried but bounced back quickly. Already so much like Momma.